Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Doomed by Cuteness!

While BJDs are paused for me right now, I have found another thing to be passionate about.

I have no idea, why now? I have known about Pure Neemos for quite a while, and if you knew me very well, you would know I would say stuff like "sure they're cute, but they're not for me".
There's a Danish saying: "Du har et standpunkt, til du tager et nyt", which translates to something like "You have a view on things until you get a new one", which is definitely what has happened to me.

I can't remember the exactly way of how it happened, but I think Maria showed me the Otogi no Kuni Wizard of Oz Himeno, which was a preorder at Nippon Yasan. I fell completely in love with her, and somehow Maria and I ended up preordering her, even though we have to wait forever for her.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Temporary BJD break

The BJD hobby as a whole feels very demotivating and I don't have the same spark as I used to. I don't think I'm about to leave the hobby, but I think I need a break from it.
I may still keep doing my ADAW challenge, and who knows, maybe I can talk myself into taking some extra BJD photos as well, but we'll see.

For now, have a photo of my dog, Cleo, whom just got a haircut. :3

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Update + Photo of Gabby

Thank you guys for the previous comments <3 It means a lot. I'm doing somewhat better.
I have been participating in Camp NaNoWriMo in April. I'm not done, of course, but I'm above my average word count, so I think it's going decently. :)

Otherwise, I still hate my writing, I still feel "meh" about my characters, and I still feel like a failure. Haha.
I don't want to give up on the story, I have been working on it for ten years now, so I feel very attached to it, but I'm thinking of giving it a break and working on other things.

I will probably keep my dolls and the characters they are.
But I have decided to sell some floating heads since I don't feel attached to the particular sculpts.

ADAW for week 14

Friday, March 31, 2017

Being real and seeking advice

I know I have shared a lot of details about my personal life on this blog, and I'm gonna continue to do so.
I have lost motivation. I feel dead inside and I don't even know if I should stop writing stories altogether. I know it's probably my brain messing with me, but it's so tough and confusing.

I have considered a lot of possibilities:
- Creating a new universe and creating a bunch of new stories to work on besides Larika?
- Giving up on the current universe and create a new one?
- Giving up entirely on writing?

I used to love everything about creating stories. Now I feel empty and hollow, even when I try to imagine the characters and the stories, it's so demotivating.

I don't know anymore. Sorry for being down again...

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Ramble and photos of Annabelle

I went to my psychiatrist and it went very well. I hope it'll be the start of better recovery!
It isn't magic, I'm not gonna get cured today and that's that. But I believe I will feel better and better soon, and at some point live a life, where I'm happy. :)

I haven't been thinking much about my story or the characters lately. I haven't had the mental capacity to do so, but it'll come back I'm sure.

I found a trade on DoA recently. I have been wanting an Impldoll Delia as Connor version 2! And a dark tan Delia head showed up, so I took the chance and proposed a trade, which the seller agreed to. Delia arrived just yesterday, and I love love love the head.

I posted some pictures of Annabelle a while ago.

Friday, March 17, 2017

A small update

I'm still alive. I'm just not feeling all that well. Life is tough, but I'm sure it'll be better once I get to see my psychiatrist.

I wanted to show you Ruby, Kid Delf Muhwa, together with Audrey, Honey Delf Lolly.

Tuesday, February 28, 2017


So the increase in meds didn't work out for me. I got a bunch of side effects =_=
I have been feeling numb, like my feelings were numb and I couldn't feel anything beyond annoyance or anger. I have been exhausted as well, so tired and restless. And I haven't been able to write at all, which I had been doing a lot lately.
I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow, and she'll probably get me a reference, beyond that, there's not much I can do.

Last weekend was spent with Maria. It was a nice weekend, but thanks to the side effects, I didn't feel all that good. Still, I'm glad to have spent time with her.

We decided to take some photos, but I gave up fairly quickly. I did get some photos, but I wish I had the energy to take some better ones.

Gabby got herself a septum :3

We joked about the ship name of Donna and Gabby could be Dobby. Hahaha.